心痛

我的心又再被箭射中了，很痛。
昨晚半夜，他睡不着，去找朋友聊天去了。熟睡的我，醒了。
很久没动他的电话了，反正睡不着，就拿他电话来看。

结果，每次都有惊喜。我看到“她” 发来的信息，是图片信息，写Dear,ni kan...。。。。她说她被蚊子咬。重点是 "dear" 我几时和人家分享一个dear?? 我快崩溃了。多一下，他回来了。我冷静的拿着电话给他，说“要解释吗？”

他竟然回答不了。我心想，只要他说一个理由，我都相信他。可是，他不出声。渐渐的，我的眼泪慢慢的流出来。

我也慢慢的听到他也哭了。我想他哭可能真的爱我了，我想我哭我是真的想放弃他了。
我们抱在一起，我大哭特哭。他说，对不起，对不起X 无数次。我说，背叛了就是背叛了。
他说，事情不是这样，羊羊有喜欢的人了。那封是她发错。我就说，你就不小心收着咯。他又说， 他明明洗掉了。为什么还会在这里，他不明白。

我选择相信他。慢慢的，他睡了。而我，还不能睡，眼泪一直流。也不懂哭了几个小时，他的3粒电话我都看完。最后，我决定跟他做回朋友。比情人特别的朋友。我越哭越厉害。心里有千言万语想对他说。我摸了他的脸，把他的模样，味道，体温都记住了。也许，以后都没机会了。
突然，他醒了，看到我还在哭泣。他吓到了。我用电话打“我们还是做回朋友。比情人特别的朋友”。 他也哭了。他一直说不要，不要。我也哭得很厉害。心软之下，点了点头。

我不懂自己的决定对吗。但，到现在我还是心痛着。
也许，我更本不适合谈恋爱。
难道。我这一生注定是火柴吗？注定被燃烧一次又一次吗？

~29-09-10~ the most memorable day for me

the result is release today..my 1st class at 9am..so i dn have the chance to check my result...my classmate say the result will release after 10am. So after 10am, they start to check their result..and i can hear most of them are happy because get a nt bad result...
After class, i quickly open my laptop n open TARC website n faster help my hubby check...wakakaka..wan die sure let him die 1st...but luckily~ he is PASS
and turn to me to check my result..i ady knw sure will fail 1 subject.. but i still looking for miracle ~
Maybe the god dn want let me sad so fast..unfortunately...i cannt log in the website..so i ask my buddy help me check...[actually start from last9 i ady cry for it]
Deng Deng Deng...my buddy send me the result..yeah...rly fail 1 subject...my heart from 18th floor drop to ground floor...my tear start to fall down...but thk thk thk..now jz cry i still cannt change anythg..so stop crying anymore...

hubby know i'm sad..so he promise bring me go movie...haha..some more we watch 2 movies ~ revenge of king cobra (tis movie is me want watch 1..he is not so willing) ~another movie is Resident Evil (tis is he want watch want )

Because of me he go borrow motor from his fren, he still go gurney there drive his fren's motor back..just bcz his fren's motor go to repair..
when we go to gurney, it's raining..so sad for me..his body is wet..some more he is sick-INg..me so touching n sad...but he tell me..he sad too because others guy fetch their gf go dating v car..he jz v motor...
DEAR, i dn care..ok? we sure got chance sit car 1..after we work...we now depend ourself..k...
Dear, today i'm so touching n happy..tis is a very sweet dating for me..after movie we go JamesFoo for our dinner...we are very lucky, because we are last customer d..haha

he accompany me over my lunar birthday..thx ya dar..
I LOVE U..
U are the 1, i want to walk through for future..

Is time to update my blog again..

Hai, everyone...I'm back..

Although, i know my blog is no follower,no readers but i still will write it out...

Yesterday was my lunar birthday..unfortunately my bestie they dn knw..got a bit sad..but nvm...At least, the god is treat me nicely..i feel that i got a bit lucky yesterday..because when i want go to college, i met my classmate at lift, so i nt need walk to college..hehe and back too..hehe (lucky huh )

some more, i had watch ~Devil~ v my bestie n their fren..at least got function for me, wont feel so boring at hostel...=] 

we cook some simple food for our dinner...

N i sleep quite earlier, dn knw y last nite feel so tired..

That is the whole day of my lunar birthday 

last nite had a fun nite v my besties~ Annie, Denise w/ her bf and Eugine..

whole nite we had go 3 station which are Heng Heng Tomyam Mee, Berapit Shu Zhun Dong Dong Qiang n Annie' house..

Yeah, me ate tomyam mee again...tis semester break, i already ate a lot of tomyam mee, but it is nice..^^

after tomyam mee, we go "dong dong qiang" there drink "xi koay teng", after that, direct go annie'house..actually we plan play mahjong 1..unfortunately, her mahjong at her old house..so cant play =[

then, we just chit chat..

My "D""E""A""R"

i'm very lucky gt u guys...i very appreciate our friendship..

U 3 will be myside whn i'm upset..

thx my dear..muatxx..love u 3...

very sorry..last9 we din take photo as a memory..nvm lah...got other chance 1..

Eugine

Denise

Annie

不管将来我们能否一起走到最后，既然目前选择了你，所以就要用心

不爱就不要选择，爱了就要坚持。真正的幸福是一点一点争取的，是一天一天积累的。
不要去伤害爱你的人，也不要让你爱的人受伤害。
成熟不是看你的年龄有多大，而是看你的肩膀能挑起多重的责任。
爱一个人要用心，诚心相待，真心交流，恒心相守。
不要计较太多的得与失，感情没有绝对的公平，也没有绝对的对错，要学会用一颗宽容的心包容对方的缺点与失误。
在一起是一种缘分，真的好珍贵，不要轻易让爱人哭泣伤心，好好珍惜在一起的每一分钟，美好的回忆应该留给快乐和欢笑。
无论遇到什么事情，不要轻易说分手，不要轻易放弃感情，下一站未必比她好。
相信你的爱人，不要总是怀疑她的诚意，亲密之余给彼此留一点自己的空间。
经常想念对方，哪怕她的坏，设身处地的多为对方着想，永远别让她的面孔变得陌生。

其实每个人一开始都不懂爱情，与爱人一起经历一些事情，甚至一起经历一些痛苦，才能变得成熟，才会懂得珍惜。
爱了就爱了，永远不要说后悔。只是一定要记住，让相爱的日子多一点欢乐，不要留下遗憾。
爱一个人是一件很幸福，又很辛苦的事。
我总是希望可以与我的爱人“执子之手，与子偕老”
所以我总是告诉自己：“选我所爱，爱我所选！！

YEAN TSEN LUNG..我选择了你，我就会爱你到底.

 ah Ye0ng Dairy


Sorry to say that, i need try to use English to type my blog~
I know my English are poor enough, but i have no choice ..i have to use this way to improve my English..


I hope u guy can support me ~^.^~

Have a fun gathering v my bestie~Kaylin, Jason n Eilynn

Ah Ye0ng Dairy


Ahah, just now went to Penang meet my bestie ~KAYLIN with JAson Kit & Eilynn.
Around 8:00pm Jason come and fetch me, than we straight to Penang, before go to meet KAylin, JAson go fetch his gf ~Eilynn first..After that, we straight to Queensbay fetch Kaylin than go XOX chit-chat.


When i saw Kaylin, the first thing we do are hug each other..
We already 3 months din meet le...
We keep chating and took photo..


Around 10pm something, we demise our gathering =[
KAYLIN LEE JIA LIN ~ I will miss U badly