心痛

我的心又再被箭射中了，很痛。
昨晚半夜，他睡不着，去找朋友聊天去了。熟睡的我，醒了。
很久没动他的电话了，反正睡不着，就拿他电话来看。

结果，每次都有惊喜。我看到“她” 发来的信息，是图片信息，写Dear,ni kan...。。。。她说她被蚊子咬。重点是 "dear" 我几时和人家分享一个dear?? 我快崩溃了。多一下，他回来了。我冷静的拿着电话给他，说“要解释吗？”

他竟然回答不了。我心想，只要他说一个理由，我都相信他。可是，他不出声。渐渐的，我的眼泪慢慢的流出来。

我也慢慢的听到他也哭了。我想他哭可能真的爱我了，我想我哭我是真的想放弃他了。
我们抱在一起，我大哭特哭。他说，对不起，对不起X 无数次。我说，背叛了就是背叛了。
他说，事情不是这样，羊羊有喜欢的人了。那封是她发错。我就说，你就不小心收着咯。他又说， 他明明洗掉了。为什么还会在这里，他不明白。

我选择相信他。慢慢的，他睡了。而我，还不能睡，眼泪一直流。也不懂哭了几个小时，他的3粒电话我都看完。最后，我决定跟他做回朋友。比情人特别的朋友。我越哭越厉害。心里有千言万语想对他说。我摸了他的脸，把他的模样，味道，体温都记住了。也许，以后都没机会了。
突然，他醒了，看到我还在哭泣。他吓到了。我用电话打“我们还是做回朋友。比情人特别的朋友”。 他也哭了。他一直说不要，不要。我也哭得很厉害。心软之下，点了点头。

我不懂自己的决定对吗。但，到现在我还是心痛着。
也许，我更本不适合谈恋爱。
难道。我这一生注定是火柴吗？注定被燃烧一次又一次吗？

~29-09-10~ the most memorable day for me

the result is release today..my 1st class at 9am..so i dn have the chance to check my result...my classmate say the result will release after 10am. So after 10am, they start to check their result..and i can hear most of them are happy because get a nt bad result...
After class, i quickly open my laptop n open TARC website n faster help my hubby check...wakakaka..wan die sure let him die 1st...but luckily~ he is PASS
and turn to me to check my result..i ady knw sure will fail 1 subject.. but i still looking for miracle ~
Maybe the god dn want let me sad so fast..unfortunately...i cannt log in the website..so i ask my buddy help me check...[actually start from last9 i ady cry for it]
Deng Deng Deng...my buddy send me the result..yeah...rly fail 1 subject...my heart from 18th floor drop to ground floor...my tear start to fall down...but thk thk thk..now jz cry i still cannt change anythg..so stop crying anymore...

hubby know i'm sad..so he promise bring me go movie...haha..some more we watch 2 movies ~ revenge of king cobra (tis movie is me want watch 1..he is not so willing) ~another movie is Resident Evil (tis is he want watch want )

Because of me he go borrow motor from his fren, he still go gurney there drive his fren's motor back..just bcz his fren's motor go to repair..
when we go to gurney, it's raining..so sad for me..his body is wet..some more he is sick-INg..me so touching n sad...but he tell me..he sad too because others guy fetch their gf go dating v car..he jz v motor...
DEAR, i dn care..ok? we sure got chance sit car 1..after we work...we now depend ourself..k...
Dear, today i'm so touching n happy..tis is a very sweet dating for me..after movie we go JamesFoo for our dinner...we are very lucky, because we are last customer d..haha

he accompany me over my lunar birthday..thx ya dar..
I LOVE U..
U are the 1, i want to walk through for future..

Is time to update my blog again..

Hai, everyone...I'm back..

Although, i know my blog is no follower,no readers but i still will write it out...

Yesterday was my lunar birthday..unfortunately my bestie they dn knw..got a bit sad..but nvm...At least, the god is treat me nicely..i feel that i got a bit lucky yesterday..because when i want go to college, i met my classmate at lift, so i nt need walk to college..hehe and back too..hehe (lucky huh )

some more, i had watch ~Devil~ v my bestie n their fren..at least got function for me, wont feel so boring at hostel...=] 

we cook some simple food for our dinner...

N i sleep quite earlier, dn knw y last nite feel so tired..

That is the whole day of my lunar birthday